In Memory (pencil portrait)
Dedicated to Stephen Noble Holland, March 23rd, 1998 – June 14th, 2010
And his mother, father and sister.
This young man taught me how to find my own way. He showed me that I could define and shape my own world, and he pushed me to think carefully about the what kind of world I wanted to be a part of. With him I tasted for the first time the rich beauty of love. He will forever be a part of me and in my heart.
Something we the living attach grief to.
We wonder what we could have done
What could we have said
To change it.
But perhaps this world was just not meant for them
Find a long golden red strand of hair
Unexpectedly in our green hoodie
The one both Stephen and I wore
He’s watching over.
He is watching from a better place.
And he says he is happy,
And please, let us live
For never in a million years
Would he want his death to keep us from blossoming
Perhaps that fear
That fear that he would hurt us
Was what kept him with us for as long as he was
So he asks us
Please let go
He is happy and at peace now.
Let us be too
May he find a place
Where the light s softer
The earth more forgiving
May he rest easily
And forgive himself
For things I long ago had already forgiven.
May his spirit find a home to rest
Where love flows freely
To and from him
May he rest in peace.